Ever since I started this diary, I have been asked questions about spiritual things...in particular, the events mentioned in the Book of Revelation, the last part of the Bible, written by the apostle John when he was taken to Heaven and shown what will happen at the end of the age. People often ask me questions concerning this book. So, I guess I'll talk a little about it. Let me start by saying that this is an uncomfortable book to talk about. To be honest, I don't know everything about what it says...I can only speculate. Only my Creator knows it's meaning...with that said, I will do my best to answer the questions you've asked.
The first major topic that I've been asked about is the Devil himself, Satan...but I call him Lucifer. Many people ask me about Lucifer because many people associate me with him. I have said many times that I serve God, not the devil, so people ask me what my relationship is with the devil and what I know about him. Is he really a monster? Should we fear him? Do you hate him or feel sorry for him? These are questions I get a lot, so be patient with me as I tell you what I think about Lucifer.
The first thing you need to know is that Lucifer is real...a real baby anyway. In my eyes, Lucifer is a spoiled child throwing a temper tantrum. You humans consider him as a great and evil being. You see him as a monstrosity and the embodiment of wickedness and evil...and he is indeed all of these things, but let's take another look at him! He was in Heaven as a great and glorious angel...but then he got full of himself and wanted more power, and more praise, claiming he was equal to his Creator. So God threw him and his supporters out of Heaven, and now he's throwing a temper tantrum, running around and trying to destroy everything that God created. Yes, he's wicked, evil, and corrupt....but when you look at it from my viewpoint...he's just a whiny brat. Many believe that Lucifer and God will fight it out in the end and it will be a great cataclysmic battle that will decide who is greater. This...is false. There is no question as to who is greater. Lucifer is a creation...which means that he is just as powerless against his Creator as any of us. Again...he is a spoiled child throwing a tirade...shouting and screaming because he didn't get his way, but he can't stop his father from punishing him for doing so.
Another great question is if angels and demons will battle in the end of days. Believe it or not, they're already battling each other. From the Fall of Man all the way to know, the cosmic battle between Heaven and Hell has been ongoing. Let me explain. Lucifer is intent on destroying God's creations...throwing his tantrum and making a mess just to prove a point. So he sends his minions out to do his dirty work...he lies and cheats and he corrupts this world with his reach. But God does not leave his children defenseless. Demons aren't all that walk this earth...angels do as well. You have seen them, but you probably do not recognize them. I have seen them...spoken with them...and at times helped them. The battle will not start with Armageddon...rather, it will end with it.
I think the biggest questions that I get about the book of Revelation is my role in it. Is there a Rapture? Am I the 4th Horseman of the Apocalypse? Will I be cast into the Lake of Fire with Lucifer? Will God strike me down? ...This is all a very complicated matter, and I'm not sure if I can explain it in a way you will understand, but I shall do my best.
First let me discuss the Rapture. Some of you do not believe that the Rapture will take place. I do not believe it will take place...I KNOW it will. But what will happen? I'm sure you've heard the story of Elijah? If not, then you have at least heard the song "Come Sweet Chariot," right? Elijah and I never met...I never took his soul. This is because Elijah was carried away to Heaven personally by God. Now, Elijah's disciple, Elisha claimed that Elijah was carried away on a flaming chariot from Heaven. The thing to remember is that humans do not have words that can describe everything that takes place in Heaven. There are not words able to explain God's abilities...but boy do you try to create some.
During the time period, chariots were the fastest means of transportation...where as, in this time period, it would be some kind of jet, I am assuming. What is more likely the case is that Elijah was whisked away by a holy power so quickly and with such power, that Elisha could only explain it as being the fastest known way of travel...that Elijah must have been carried away on a chariot. Perhaps if it had been in this time period, Elisha might have described it as a flaming F-14 jet from Heaven (that analogy makes me laugh every time I consider it).
My theory is that God will carry away His chosen people in a similar way. He will whisk them away to Heaven with speed and haste, in a manner that is indescribable in human language. This will be what takes place in the Rapture. It will most likely not involve me in anyway. God will likely want to carry you home personally.
Am I the 4th Horseman? In Revelations God releases 4 Horsemen upon the world...they are War, Conquest, Famine, and Death. Many people like to think of these Horsemen as literal manifestations. I believe that you humans even made a few shows and video games off of this concept, but I think that you need to, again, consider that things of Heaven cannot always be explained in human words. Remember what I said about Elijah? Well...the same rules apply here. You have to consider the time period in which John was living in to have a grasp of what he was describing. At the time period, horsemen were people who rode on horseback quickly from one place to a another carrying messages or news, as they were fast and able to move swiftly. Horsemen wouldn't actually be used for warfare until the creation of a calvary...so to interpret the 4 Horsemen as warriors is probably not true.
Also, do not think of the 4 Horsemen as literal beings...but rather as a sequence of events. When nations grow angry with each other, they go to War...the first Horseman. When war comes, nations desire more land and power, which is Conquest...the second Horseman. The spoils of war and conquest will leave many without resources and without necessities, leading to Famine...the third Horseman. Finally, all of these things will lead to Death....the 4th Horseman. So yes....in away, you could say that I'm the 4th Horseman that God will release, but I don't think that it's any different than the time of the Great Flood or the Death of the First Born when God called me to do something specific for him. God is simply giving me a job to do...and I will do it. It doesn't mean that I'll ride a pale horse across the earth cutting down humans left and right...but that I will just be busy cleaning up the mess of the wars, conquests, and famines.
The other big question is will I die? Will I be cast into the Lake of Fire with Lucifer? To be honest, I have no idea. The concept of Death dying is a very strange one indeed...but I am not eternal...God is. Let me explain it like this. The Lake of Fire is a metaphor for the Second Death....the eternal death. I have nothing to do with the second death. I am just a ferryman, carrying souls on to the next life. The second death is an eternal end...to be destroyed and erased for eternity. Lucifer will suffer this fate, as will those who follow him. The Bible says that I will too. Personally, I don't think that is the case.
The thing you need to understand about the second death is that it is reserved for those who have defied and disobeyed God. They acted against The Lord, and did not seek forgiveness. However, I have never defied God, nor have I acted against Him. I have loyally done everything He has asked of me. The truth is that when the end finally comes, and all souls have been judged, I will no longer be necessary. I will not have a purpose. There will be no more need for my job. Realize that this job isn't who I am...but what I do. Death is my job...it was my task given to me when man was expelled from the Garden of Eden...so when my job is no longer necessary, what will become of me?
What I believe, and what I hope will happen is God will relieve me of my burden and my job. He will destroy the concept of death and do away with my job and let me have rest at last. Perhaps he will give me a new name...let me finally come home to Heaven and live in paradise with Him and all of His children. That would be wonderful...it would be everything I could ever dream of. To finally be released from my bonds and to be free of them. To retire...to hand up the cloak and scythe for good (that is a joke by the way, I've told you that I only wear a cloak in cold weather and I do not carry a scythe).
It is always very possible that I am wrong. Perhaps God will destroy me along with Lucifer and all of the others who have been damned....and if that is the case, then so be it. It is His will, not mine, that needs to be done. If my fate is to be destroyed, then I will be ready. But like I said...it is only my job. I have never, and never will I defy or turn against my Creator like that spoiled brat, Lucifer. I do not believe that God will destroy me...but instead he will simply free me from my task and do away with my chains. Whatever happens, I am prepared.
This entry has been hard. Please do not ask me when these things will take place, because I do not know, and I honestly don't really care. I am not one to gaze into the future. The future is not my business. I am more concerned with what is happening around me now. Worrying about the future is useless, for it is not something that we can control. I cannot stop what happens, and I do not want to...because that defies God's plan. Frankly, I do not worry about prophecy and about the Armageddon, I do not even think about it that often. It's just something that I am aware of.
People often say it is important to look to the future...and while this may be true, it is also important to focus on the present as well, for if you spend too much time looking ahead, you miss the chance to see what's happening around you.
Regardless, it is time that I got back to work. This was an interesting entry to say the least. I hope that you enjoyed my insight. I shall write again when I have time.